EDIT: OMG. SMACK JEEVES WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU?!?!? QAQ THE CHANGE IT'S JUST. OMG TOO DIFFERENT!!!! QAQ when did this happen? ;A; just a couple hours ago you were normal and now everything is so .....different....IT'S SO BLUE QAQ!!!!

um sorry i just wanna talk i guess orz;;;
i know no one's gonna really read this, but posting journals make me feel like i'm talking to you all. even if you don't read, it's cool, i just feel a little better getting things into words lol ;u;b
man school has been killing me :c although i think that's probably because i'm always procrastinating hurr ;u; i've been putting alot of things off lately. it's kinda stressful i should probably stop soon. even my dA inbox, which i haven't gone through in a while, is really getting to me lol TTuTT speaking of procrastinating/putting things off, i haven't done my homework yet...oh well, i'll get to that later. :'D

in other news, i hung out with alot of my friends the other day. we had a belated birthday party for one of my friends. another one of our friends came too, but he brought his girlfriend. that was a little awkward cuz two of my friends who were there like him lol. he knew his girlfriend wasn't allowed to come too, it was pretty messed up of him. i had to stop alot of the girl friends of mine from throwing things at his girlfriend eue;;;; anyway yeah slight drama ensued lmao c':

that night was like a miracle for me though. @u@;;; we went out to get some pho, and while we were sitting there, this group of people our age walked out of the resturant, and all i did was stare at one of them because....it was the guy who goes to my school who i totally love!!! O///A///O;;;; lol he didn't notice me though orz;;;; but it made me so happy you have no idea ;___; at school that day, i wanted to just see him once, but we have no classes together and during the time i usually see him, the passing period for 4th and 5th period, i wasn't quick enough to get upstairs and only saw the back of him as he went into his class TTATT;;; but then it was like destiny, cuz i saw him that night!! *///u///* my friends were all laughing at me though because they don't go to school with me and all they saw was me staring at some korean boy LOL;;; >u>;;;; then i told them he went to my school and they were like "oooooh". _{buttheystilllaughedlol orz;;;}

but yeah i love seeing him it makes me feel so happy you have no idea omg @u@ it's like instant energy burst, idk i can't even begin to describe the feeling lol ;u; but then afterwards i always feel like an idiot because really, there's no way i can like him, it's totally impossible. i have no classes with him, i've never spoken to him once, and i don't even know his name. thinking that i like him is stupid, and totally illogical, but then when i see him it's like.... idk lmao @u@ it's kinda sad though, because i was talking about him to my friend after we left for pho, and she said he was with his girlfriend, because in his group of friends, there were the same number of boys and girls, so he had to be. i mean, i shouldn't be surprised, he's gorgeous, and i know already there was never a chance of me and him hooking up, he's never even noticed me after all but still i didn't wanna hear that. ignorance is bliss y'know? but i think i'll be stubborn and won't believe her, cuz she was..well a little drunk when we were in the pho shop so.... >____>;;; anyway sorry i'll stop about him now.

but yeah i'm gonna probably try and start a comic soon. i'm gonna get to work on the story board soon, and try and get the first chapter, at least, all planned out before i start. i'm kinda scared because i haven't really actually honestly tried to make my own comic before, but i figure, if i keep feeling scared and waiting, it'll never happen, so i should just dive in and try probably. ;u;''' i hope i can really start this time, and i hope that i have fun working on it, and that there will be some people who can enjoy it. It's title is gonna be Cat Trouble, it'll be BL and it will hopefully be funny, but with my awful sense of humour i can't say for certain LOL;; orz;;; and...there's gonna be a crud load of characters lmao @u@ just thinking about all the characters that will have to be introduced at some point in time of the story...oh gosh theres alot @u@;;; i might cut some lmao c':

but yeah guess that's it, if anyone actually read all of this, i'm sorry for writing so much, thank you for listening to me though, i don't really talk to people much since school makes up most of my week, and well i currently have one friend in school who i never see lol TTuTT;; and then lately it feels like no one has been talking to me online either, not even on msn lol ;u; omg and now i'm just complaining, i must sound like a pathetic wimp, sorry TTATT;; but thank you for reading this, i'm sorry, yeah ok that's it i'm sorry i'll stop sorry ;A;!!!
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_{bye bye ;u; <3}